cheer up emo dude.

2006-07-28T01:32:00.000-07:00

i'm back. like jesus, only without the freaky wounds.the truth is i'm only back for one reason, or better said, one person. so as to avoid any confusion: saira, this is for you.i miss you; i can't say i understand why you've retreated into yourself or perhaps i'm to blame for something. i refuse to spend this space rationalizing, whining, apologizing, lamenting, self-loathing, explaining, i

2005-08-21T19:49:00.000-07:00

this is the last song i will ever singits said that all good things must come to an end, the inverse must also hold true; as such i'm ending this blog. its run its course, served its purpose and now it comes to a grinding halt. i can't really see the point in it anymore, it's ceased as a creative outlet for my thoughts and emotions...at best its become a watered down version of how i feel - like

2005-08-19T17:15:00.000-07:00

bad news like twinkiesheartbreaks and headaches: they seem to arrive in pairs.and just like that its all changed...such a little thing, but the difference it makes. thank you :-p

2005-08-17T18:03:00.000-07:00

hope?

2005-08-16T20:46:00.000-07:00

on being drunk.i've come to accept that i'm an alcoholic at heart, or at the very least that I prefer my inebriated state of being over my perceived reality. i'm desperately lookng for something, someone, somewhere to paint the life back into my reality; my liver's beckoning for any sign of salvation. did i ever mention that i hate reggaeton? not so much related, but equally as important to

2005-08-07T01:16:00.000-07:00

this is a modern worldI'm home on a saturday night...i still haven't quite decided whether or not this is a good thing, i expect to have an answer by post's end. much to david's amusement, i'm listening to jets' "orange rhyming dictionary" for the 1,287,379th time; i find it breaks up the monotony in my life brought on by jawbreaker's "24 revenge therapy." truth is i've long passed my "

2005-07-31T20:29:00.000-07:00

this is my private life.sunday 8:30p i'm actually looking forward to work mañana: odd. i had a great weekend, that's all anybody needs to know. don't hate.The disco makes me sick IWear the wrong clothesI say the wrong thingsYou know I can't danceMy feet are much too wide (I'm on the outside)-d.elfman

2005-07-28T02:32:00.000-07:00

"Los satisfechos, los felices, no aman; se duermen en la costumbre."it was a remarkably busy day in the office today. between meetings in and out of the office, i got to enjoy a few brief intervals at my desk: these intervals were marred by pestering sales folk and equally annoying phone calls. amidst all of this, i step out of my office looking utterly discombobulated..."how many sons does

2005-07-20T09:35:00.000-07:00

one more thought before i jump back into the rat race...i forgot i'd written this...a letter to a dear friend...

2005-07-20T09:23:00.000-07:00

"Tried living in the real world...I was bored before I even began"been up since 4 this morning, i don't recommend it. i have a lot to say, but not enough energy to type any of it. i'll let the good and the bad fester in the confines of my mind and hope to end up with a tolerable stew.why do we wake up, why do we try? because we must.

2005-07-18T17:47:00.000-07:00

Long distance drunk. Sunday 1p. wake up to the sound of a chirping cell phone, its a text message: "wedding crashers like @ 5ish?" rub my eyes, read the message over to make sense of it all...back to sleep.5:30 i'm feeling rather refreshed now, strolling into Farmer's Market, looking for my friends; across the sea of heads i see a waving hand. i tread my way across the tables making my way to the

2005-07-15T02:09:00.000-07:00

2 is always greater than 1/2its the kinda night where i'm deafened by my emotions...they leave behind a sound so loud that it drowns out the words trying to escape my mouth. i retrace my steps, one by one, a careful evaluation of how i arrived at this point on this night. nothing. you don't figure these things out do you? it's really not the sort of thing where you sit up in your room on a

2005-07-08T21:43:00.000-07:00

Regresame a Jupiter.

2005-07-06T17:48:00.000-07:00

"Where is my mind?Way out in the water, see it swimming?" i've been drinking copious amounts of coffee today, i think i'll be sweating expresso for the next two weeks. day 3 of no sleep and it's really getting old...sorta cute the first two nights, not so much night number three. i've been averaging about 3 hours of interrupted sleep/night and today its most unbearable! Last night i found my

2005-07-05T18:12:00.000-07:00

i'm just coming down off of one of the worst coffee buzzes ever! i rather enjoyed it."do you like coffee?" i do.

2005-07-05T01:42:00.000-07:00

theres a lot to be said for bad poetry. i'll leave that up to you.

2005-07-03T03:12:00.000-07:00

tossing and turning :3am--------------------------------------------why do i get this way?why wont this feeling sleep?why are the dogs still barking?why isn't this beer working?why?names and faces fade,but not you...you refuse to rest.keeping me up...as you lay asleep.so i find myselfin front of abright light anddark keyson a grey night.your image tacked upagainst the back of my skull:black,

2005-07-03T02:09:00.000-07:00

perhaps i just don't feel like sharing.my mind's scattered across the bedroom floor and i don't know how or where to begin collecting these thoughts; i really wish they'd collect themselves...because there's no room for me to sleep.sunday, 2am... there's a lot that still remains to be said , but i'm holding back. waiting for the next embrace that sheilds me from reality, at this point i wanna

2005-06-30T17:59:00.000-07:00

and i do it all with a smile. 10a the phone rings: office number, should i answer?decisions, decisions... i hit green and before the phone reached my ear, the fireworks began.it was my GM ripping into me like a backwoods truck driver; in that short, poignant assault he managed to throw out more profanities than a one hour chris rock hbo special...a fete that left me most impressed. every mistake

2005-06-27T03:24:00.000-07:00

One more thing before i surrender tonight; i've been writing a lot lately...half work-related, half leisure. i'm excited about both: work, because its for a side project; leisure, because it settles my soul. i've never been one for poetry, but i've been writing some broken prose that i've unwillingly labeled as poetry lately...i may post some up soon...if i'm brave enough.

2005-06-27T02:45:00.000-07:00

5 minute weekend evaluation:Friday- nice dinner/good party: abruptly ruined by a complete, whole-hearted, motherless ass- hole/night salvaged when She crashed into my arms and we both chased the night away. [Grade: B-. would have been an A+ had shitface been taught some remedial lessons in social etiquette.]Saturday- woke up late/ate/slept/watched tv/slept/failed attempt at writing/slept/

2005-06-27T02:39:00.000-07:00

*David Zulaica calling…*“Armando, you won’t believe what I just saw?”“what?!”“you’re favorite band’s playing in Maywood”[thinking. Thinking. Now I know WHAM’s been broken up for a while and Air Supply, well they wouldn’t visit Maywood, Genesis totally sucks without Peter Gabriel, dashboard confessional? No! david knows I’m not a sexually confused sixteen year old (sorry john)…hmmmm] “who?!?!?”“

2005-06-24T01:39:00.000-07:00

behold the keeper of the gems.or should i say, keeper of the jams.a fitting start to a weekend. enjoy.

2005-06-23T13:01:00.000-07:00

sleep's a genius...much has been said about the chain of events that took place last night, so much so that I don't feel it necessary to repeat any of it. in the end, all's been resolved...those who know me, know that my loyalty never falters and to every one else I say, "be well." Sorry, I meant, go to hell (its funny because its true and because i don't believe in hell). so much more i'd like

2005-06-20T02:38:00.000-07:00

say it loud!!!a site for all of us who are tired of not being heard. art in its truest form.

2005-06-20T01:27:00.000-07:00

stop getting in the way of my mind.i really don't have much to complain about this weekend, it was by all definitions, a good weekend. friday, i enjoyed a good show (la ley @ the gibson amphitheater), followed by a memorable after party at a most unlikely establishment. happiness manifests itself in different ways and on this night it took the shape of a white, ceramic mug. it sounds odd that a

2005-06-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

my eyes feel like they're bleeding. going out on a Wednesday night, not such a hot idea...one of those "sounded good at the moment" ideas. in retrospect, i really could have done without. as far as my on going project (see previous post), i must say, i'm very pleased with the way its coming along, can't wait to see the final product. :-)

2005-06-14T00:10:00.000-07:00

part one of my labour of love completed. is it worth it?( i'll let you know). nothing worth having comes easy.

2005-06-12T22:49:00.000-07:00

errrrr."whats wrong?""nothing.""are you sure?""yeah, i'm sure. I'm okay.""you don't feel like talking about it?"(empty stare)."why don't you like to talk about it?""well, there really isn't anything to talk about...""...I worry; I'm here if you need to talk about it.""when i get something, i'll let you know."these conversations are murder, just got through with one. uncanny how a conversation

2005-06-12T21:36:00.000-07:00

four beers, some laughs, too much food, and a cigar...these things change nothing. there's a breakdown coming, i can feel it moving in, it's just a matter of time. my lid's rattling, i need somone to help me vent before i start spilling out all over the kitchen floor. smile, nod, breathe, repeat.

2005-06-12T15:55:00.000-07:00

i went to sleep at 4a this morning, woke up at around 1p...i should be fine, but i'm not. too many anxieties are parading through my mind, i can't focus on a single thought or emotion and it's driving me mad. i complicate my life. it's said that nothing worth having comes easy; just once i'd like the opportunity to dissprove the cliche. follow your heart. words to live miserably by...despite the

2005-06-09T19:25:00.000-07:00

do you love coffee? do you like sugara home sweet schoolyou’re something so familiarand so cool so my phoneand a dial toneplay ball on a short courtan overcaffeinated drone can i get you some sugar?i'm giving you my likeif that's not alrighti’ll understand do youlike coffee we like whinechampaignfulalthough she's far awayi tastes her still so my phoneand

2005-06-09T15:53:00.000-07:00

who's having the best week ever?sure as hell not me (see sunday's post).and the fun continues; after an excruciatingly painful day at work, I went out to catch some good music and a much needed drink. So far so good, right? Right. In come the comedy; on my drive home I ran my car into life, life coming in the form of a sidewalk that blew out my two driver’s side tires. Zoom out: 2am, I’m

2005-06-05T16:25:00.000-07:00

one more thing...Pixies last thursday: Great show! Beautiful company! wouldn't ask for more.

2005-06-05T16:06:00.000-07:00

"armando, how was your weekend?""pretty good, you know...took Friday off, flew out to vegas, dropped $800, woke up remorseful and hung over, missed my flight back home, had my credit card declined for a $10 charge, fell asleep in the park, got home to find a man serving me with a subpoena. pretty standard shit.""so...does that mean you do or don't want to go out for a beer?""yeah, sure."

2005-06-05T12:52:00.000-07:00

"how do you know its over?"i've been thinking a lot about the question, if only because I didn't quite know how to answer it when it was asked of me.apathy. the feeling of not feeling that makes its home in your heart and forces everything else out; once that emptiness fills every crevice of your being, then you know. thats when all the arguing subsides and you'd rather walk away than fire back;

2005-06-01T20:57:00.000-07:00

a certain somebody who, for the sake of anonymity, we'll call Laira expressed her dismay at my recent postings. She wondered why I hadn't bothered speaking of our weekend capers in the city she lovingly referred to as "Lom-pewk." so here is my account of that fateful night two weeks ago:the idea started off as one of my half-brain impulses to take a bite-size vacation to Santa Barbara; somehow i

2005-06-01T01:29:00.000-07:00

if you get around to reading this...say hello. it's far from PerFect, then again perhaps its perfection lies in its imperfection. nonetheless, i'm talking to you...say hello. :-)

2005-05-30T15:38:00.000-07:00

Memorial Day. Originally called Decoration Day, the holiday serves to commenmorate the unfortunate souls who have perished in this country's service. The day of remembrance has been celebrated in the US in some fashion since the late 19th century, but it wasn't turned into an official three-day weekend until congresss declared it a national holiday in the early 1970's. Today thousands of

2005-05-27T17:07:00.000-07:00

I forgot how good this album is, I started listening to itagain after being introduced to nouvelle vague (theycovered the song, quite brilliantly I might add).In a manner of speaking I just want to sayThat I could never forget the wayYou told me everythingBy saying nothingIn a manner of speaking I don’t understandHow love in silence becomes reprimandBut the may I feel about you is beyond wordsOh

2005-05-27T14:47:00.000-07:00

"Why is the last mile the hardest mile?"All week, it seems, I've been operating on three to four hours of sleep; and I feel surprisingly energetic! Perhaps my inexplicable energy is drawn from a most phenomenal person I'm getting to know during our late night confabs: she's indescribably witty, insightful, caring, creative, and all around one of the most beautiful people I've come to know. Yes.

2005-05-15T20:59:00.000-07:00

these posts are becoming increasingly erratic; the goal, however is not to let this die.it feels like a night where toads should be falling from the sky, believe me there is such a mood and such a night and this is it. i can only say this: I'm not disturbed by the occurances of these past few weeks. I'm down to one grandparent, zero "better halves," four close friends, and one incredible crush.

2005-04-25T16:18:00.000-07:00

its the start of an odd year.

2005-04-25T12:13:00.000-07:00

its my birthday today. doesn't really feel like my birthday and that's not entirely a bad thing. i'm listening to beck's BAD CARTRIDGE (E-Pro) [Remix]--its so rad--and despite the overall awsomeness of beck's "hell yes ep," i sit calmly with peat moss enthusiasm: impassive.i need a drink in the worst kind of way...

2005-04-20T01:07:00.000-07:00

When I'm lying in my bed at niteI don't wanna grow upNothing ever seems to turn out rightI don't wanna grow upHow do you move in a world of fog that'sAlways changing thingsMakes wish that I could be a dogWhen I see the price that you payI don't wanna grow upI don't ever want to be that wayI don't wanna grow upSeems that folks turn into thingsThat they never wantThe only thing to live for is today

2005-04-11T17:11:00.000-07:00

brian adams plays on the background WTF!!! who let donna program the radio station on my last night in barcelona.I´m sleepy, but I just wanted to tell everybody about the most incredible taxi driver I´ve ever met, he´s el ¨taxisista poeta¨ which means exactly what it sounds like...hes a taxi driver/poet. Not poet in the ninth grade-dashboard confessional type of way (sorry john), more so in the

2005-04-10T15:36:00.000-07:00

barcelona. I have five minutes left!!!I arrived in barcelona on Friday night with most of my sanity. Endeavoring on a six-city trip in two weeks is not the most ideal way to see europe: a lot of speed walking, a lot of coffee drinking, a lot of sugar binges...followed by beer-induced relaxation. long nights indeed.I´ll describe the clubs i visited here as quickly as i can:good: a beautiful

2005-04-07T10:10:00.000-07:00

internet cafe-dublin, ireland.U2 befittingly plays in the background...So much to say so little time, or more properly said, so little money...these cafes aren't cheap. I missed my flight to dublin yesterday and had to may and arm and two legs for the next available flights. Some six hours later I arrived in Dublin; note, I'm speaking in the singular, meaning I arrived without my travel

2005-04-02T08:37:00.000-08:00

just arrived in brussels. kick ass hotel, regular keyboard, great beer...we're in business. I got to see a burlesque show last night in Paris; it was an interesting experience, but not one that I'd recommend to anybody. For starters, they're ridiculously over-priced (about $90 a person, although i only payed 45) for what they are-its like watching highlights from a lot of bad musicals...naked.

2005-04-01T09:11:00.000-08:00

thursday 4pm a: "let me get you a stella artois, the sober you is depressing the hell out of me!"e: "is it good?"a: "it's free, it's beer, it shouldn't matter; but since you asked, 'yes, it's damn good.'"e: (gulp,gulp) "it tastes like budweiser."its going to be a long trip. incidentally, the aforementioned conversationed was proceeded by an even more disappointing exchange, wherein it was

2005-03-30T15:20:00.000-08:00

i've never seen a keyboard like this before, it's tricky as all hell to get used to! today was pretty much a wash; i had dinner, got lost and that about covers it. one quick note about getting lost in paris: it's kinda like getting lost in LA, in terms of it sucking ass and all; take that same feeling, couple it with not being able to ask for directions and it makes for a whole new level of

2005-03-28T19:04:00.000-08:00

on repeat...I never felt magic crazy as thisI never saw moons knew the meaning of the seaI never held emotion in the palm of my handOr felt sweet breezes in the top of a treeBut now you're hereBrighten my northern sky.I've been a long time that I'm waitingBeen a long that I'm blownI've been a long time that I've wanderedThrough the people I have knownOh, if you would and you couldStraighten my

2005-03-28T17:44:00.000-08:00

Life has been relatively stale lately, with work, work and the occasional night of drunken debauchery. I've not wanted to hear much of my own life lately, so I wouldn't imagine that anybody else would be particularly interested.Alas there is a dim light at the end of this very shallow cave, I'm returning to Europe for a couple of weeks!!! It'll be a short whirl-wind tour, but it should be quite

2005-03-25T19:12:00.000-08:00

I think I've finished wrapping up loose ends here at the office. Who am I kidding, this job is like an old cashmere sweater, there's so little stopping it from unraveling at the seams. I'll be back Monday, if only for a short time to double and triple check everything and after that it really doesn't matter...Is it pretentious to think that anybody cares what's said here? To hell I care.

2005-03-22T18:46:00.000-08:00

I don’t consciously partake in pseudo-philosophical, self-indulgent prattle, but it’s a sad reflection of the state I am in. My apologies in advance…that said, I beg that you read on…humor us both. Neither clever nor assuming; an apt description of both my life and it's online equivalent. And still I feel obligated to continue with both. Odd.I'm very much looking forward to these two weeks

2002-10-24T14:37:00.000-07:00

i feel almost criminal for not posting anything in so long. worse yet, i don't have aq legitimate excuse for not doing so. i think i've driven the laziness excuse well into the floor. quick update on my life... i'm still unemployed, although at this point it's almost comical because i've really stopped looking, so i'm not sure you could be classified as unemployed when you're not really

2002-09-14T02:02:00.000-07:00

it's late, i'm tired... i'm SUPPOSED to be reading sophocles. i AM reading kerouac. i'm carefully planning on not finishing "on the road" for the sixth time. i will, however, impart upon all of you, some low-fat food for thought...recipe courtesy of a mr. j keruuac: ". . . would never understand me because I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star

2002-09-08T03:40:00.000-07:00

two weeks later. i'm home, fully recovered and enjoying life as an unemployed student. were it not for the whole, being broke situation, i'd really enjoy remaining unemployed. it's a phenomenal state of being, one that i'd highly recommend to anyone. it's like nirvana...or alice in chains. things that i've done and or discovered since i've returned to los angeles: 1. i' dove off a cliff

2002-08-26T21:21:00.000-07:00

i'm home. do not be fooled by the hype...jet lag is a very real phenomena, and it's been shoving me up and down the streets of los angeles all day. it's nine o clock here in los angeles. i think it's time for me to give into the sleep demons. good nite. "I am thankful for small mercies. I compared notes with one of my friends who expects everything of the universe, and is disappointed when

2002-08-19T11:38:00.000-07:00

one quick note: i've invited my two roommates (brittany pronounced BRITT-ANY and michael pronounced MIKE) to add unto my blogger...i figured it would be a welcome addition to my dry postings. the goal here is to fill these pages with endless words of praise for myself. believe it or not, i never tire of hearing just how charming i could be. ill be home in six days. :-) i've found a new

2002-08-16T01:44:00.000-07:00

i had quite an amazing time in amsterdam...in fact, the only thing i've come to regret about the ordeal is leaving. i can't tell you how much i did...really i can't. and just to clarify, you could by alcohol at some coffeeshops, not that you'd want to, but the option's definately there. all in all, the experiene was one that i won't soon remember. one week left here in italy. ahhhhhh.

2002-08-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

greetings from amsterdam. i'm inside a coffee house*/internet point in a rather poetic scene. there's definately something beautiful about smoking a joint, drinking some orangina and listening to L.Z. in a quaint lil' establishment. the fact that i'm also typing only furthers my claim that i'm remarkably coordinated. although it is taking me an incredibly long amount of time to actually

2002-07-31T07:52:00.000-07:00

today was one of my least favorite days at camp...and i really didn't want it to end. it was the last day for two of the most adorable people i've ever had the pleasure of meeting. as always, time is plotting against me, but sam and sydney...you'll be missed. armando. p.s. the idea that i'll never see most of these people again in my life...is really quite disconcerting. that's life...but

2002-07-30T01:17:00.000-07:00

i just realized that my recent posts hadn't actually been published. my sincerest apologies; it was an honest oversight. something to do with the template i was using...i didn't exactly care to figure it out so i just changed the template. this past weekend i visited the lovely city of bologna. i can't stress how much fun i had in bologna. tourist guides usually only devote 2-4 pages to the

2002-07-23T03:10:00.000-07:00

i honestly don't have much to report on. stayed in gaeta this weekend and had quite an amazing time friday evening! there's actually a lot more to do in this city than i had previously believed... it's all about having the right tour guides! a sobering question has remained emblazoned in my mind these past two weeks: what am i going to do with my life after this experience? i know exactly

2002-07-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

okay i have a second longer than i had anticipated. prost! that's the german toast!weekend highlight:winning a pub crawl contest!!! yes i outlived a motley crew of twenty-some-odd germans, dutch and american beer drinkers. i have the shirt to prove it; not to mention they promised my picture would be up on the net soon...check it out: thats all.armando.

2002-07-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

prost!

2002-07-11T08:50:00.000-07:00

yippie yay!!! i'm going to munich this weekend and contrary to popular belief the beer gardens are only second on my agenda. second only to beer breweries....j.k. i'm looking forward to visiting an actual concentration camp, everyone's told me it's quite an emotional experience. hopefully they'll have internet cafes, where i'll be able to update everyone on the beer gardens. hehehe. i'll go

2002-07-10T01:24:00.000-07:00

clarification: BFFL = best friends for life. thats all for now. take care peeps. armando.

2002-07-09T02:09:00.000-07:00

wow i'm going to munich this weekend! das good! i'm quite sorry about the previous entry, i could barely make it out myself!!! i really did have an amazingly good time. i actually have very little time to write because i've wasted most of my alotted time researching my trip this weekend! and quite honestly i'm sooooo gitty with anticipation that i could barely control my fingers. once i

2002-07-06T15:17:00.000-07:00

ignorre all of my previous logs. this is by far the most drunk i have ever been. im in an internet bar/cafe/night club. venice has officially taken over as the most happenin' city in italy! if i make any mistakes, rest assure its the alcohol speaking and not myself. i love venice. the peggy guggenheim...a quaint lil' oasis that i absolutely adore. i love venice. on the train to

2002-07-06T01:15:00.000-07:00

this post will undoubetly (is that right?) have more errors than any other. im typing on a european keyboard that i havent quite got the hang of. i apologize, although im not terribly sorry about the inconvinience. very, very tired. im in venice. theres a lot of water. most impressive are the cool pay bathrooms here, everythings automatic. you dont have to touch a thing...well except for

2002-07-02T04:07:00.000-07:00

armando + alcohol = B.F.F.L. that's the lovely sign my roommate brittney made for my room. i've developed a newfound appreciation of pop art!

2002-07-02T04:04:00.000-07:00

lets see if i could say a thousand things in under five minutes. went to florence this past weekend. by far the most beautiful city i've visited thusfar, i'll definately be heading back there again although hopefully not under the same circumstances. i left to florence on friday at about 6pm, my decision to visit florence was made on friday at about 5:30pm. not recommended for anyone, i

2002-06-25T08:29:00.000-07:00

one more thing before i go home for the day: i love tuesdays and i love the rain!!! i'll explain later....oooohh suspense! adios.

2002-06-25T03:18:00.000-07:00

went to rome this weekend. st. peter's was nice, as was the sistine chapel, but then again anybody can paint on a ceiling...however it takes a very special person to make seafood pasta!!! the food was the real highlight of the weekend for me. i ate and ate in fact i'm eating as we speak. if i gain anything under twenty pounds it would be a serious dissappoint. there' s this absolutely

2002-06-18T06:32:00.000-07:00

what a premature post. typical me. i also visited the camp in naples this saturday. it's a whole lot bigger than where i work, and a whole lot sweeter because they have over twenty counsellors and a huge swimming pool with water slides and all kinds of neat stuff. envy's a killer. okay a few big differences between gaeta and los angeles. 1. in los angeles people speak spanish while in gaeta

2002-06-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

it's been an exciting weekend! i actually didn't venture off anywhere too exciting, but i did get plenty of opportunities to explore gaeta. the beaches are by far the most beautiful i've ever had the pleasure of visiting. looking into the ocean is like looking through glass. and the sand has now rocks, shells or seaweed pricking at your feet...it's absolutely incredible. i was able to swim

2002-06-14T02:06:00.000-07:00

11am here in gaeta. last night i walked the town. this city definately has it's charm. there's people of all ages walking the streets all night, it's quite a sight to see a city so alive on a thursday night. there's coffee/liquor/beer/ice cream shops on almost every single corner here, it seems like an odd combination, but i kinda like it. one thing i still have to get accustomed to is

2002-06-13T01:57:00.000-07:00

greetings from italy. gaeta to be exact. i don't have much time right now, i'm hoping to have a tad more time in the afternoon. in short italy is beautiful, i'm excited after the best night of sleep i've ever had in my life! p.s. milan is not a place i'd recommend to anybody. it will definately give you a self-esteem complex! every single human being is beautiful beyond belief. it's like

2002-06-10T21:58:00.000-07:00

i'll be leaving in just under ten hours. i'm not exactly nervous nor am i particularly scared, but i do have this unsettling feeling in my stomach. the sort of feeling you experience when you see a fist making it's way towards your jaw. perhaps it's just the sauteed spinach i had for lunch; in either case, it's quite wretched. italy should be one hundred times more fun without me knowing

2002-06-04T03:20:00.000-07:00

my name is armando. at least that’s what i seem to respond to. although i've also been known to respond to "hey retard." i really hope my name isn't retard. today will be my last day at work. a week from today i'll be cozily resting aboard a plane to italy. i'm remarkably excited about leaving work, and the trip doesn't sound too bad either. i judge my life on a 'suckiness scale:' a