i'm back. like jesus, only without the freaky wounds.

the truth is i'm only back for one reason, or better said, one person. so as to avoid any confusion: saira, this is for you.

i miss you; i can't say i understand why you've retreated into yourself or perhaps i'm to blame for something. i refuse to spend this space rationalizing, whining, apologizing, lamenting, self-loathing, explaining, i just plain refuse. i miss you and that's really all i want to say you.

i'm here. where i've always been. i've never left.

ag.